Wednesday, April 29, 2009

in need of motivation

build demand. it's just a matter of wanting it enough. in this case, fictitious characters can be more beneficial than real world ones, ironically enough.

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

throw yourself into it

happiness is merely not being conscious of oneself.

to attempt this, simply 'throw yourself' into an activity - work, gym prep, cleaning, debt reduction, resume creating, etc. keep the activities productive, so you can benefit in real terms. after all, happiness doesn't derive from the type of activity, but rather, one's letting go of self-consciousness by 'losing oneself' in the activity itself.

Monday, April 27, 2009

Friday, April 24, 2009

lazy hubris

how do you work so well?

it's because i'm lazy.

Monday, April 20, 2009

good worry

worry what to do with my too much money.

Saturday, April 18, 2009

in the gym feel the welcome and embrace the pain into your bones..elsewhere, always be running towards better things, like the jaybirds.

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

per se.

simplicity is the hardest thing to achieve - thomas keller

Tuesday, April 14, 2009


once i realized i knew nothing, everything made sense.

never above money

why is the rooster associated with money?

because he protects his unhatched yolky egg. treat money like an unhatched egg; insulate and safeguard him, kinda like your boyfriend.

Sunday, April 12, 2009

Saturday, April 11, 2009


Gusteau: [sees that Remy is about to eat a piece of bread at a get-together] What are you doing?
Remy: [groans] I'm hungry! I-I don't know where I am and I don't know when I'll find food again.
Gusteau: Remy, you are better than that. You are a cook! A cook makes! A thief takes. You are not a thief.
Remy: I am hungry.
Gusteau: [chuckles] Food will come, Remy. Food always comes to those who love to cook.


look at my wholesome husband and family. look at my garden and business, i'm so content.

to be honest i miss the emptiness, i miss the hunger and not knowing what lies ahead.

Tuesday, April 7, 2009


my contrary expressions have nothing to do with being courageous. in fact, it's a outright cowardly.

there comes a point, when the pain instilled by others to conform is diminished in comparison to the pain of continually accommodating others' views. in that sense, i'm "being myself" not to make some sort of stance. i'm simply walking away from the pain of not being myself, and am becoming too lazy to try anything otherwise.

Sunday, April 5, 2009

be a mirror

reinforce how people perceive themselves. whether it be true or false is irrelevant.

Saturday, April 4, 2009


it's always february in my head.

i know you're busy

i find busy people, let them know that.

Friday, April 3, 2009


i notice nothing makes me happier than work, even if i don't like it. the 'miserable' reflex is merely a response to social norms and expectations about the subject.

in reality, it gives me the most peace of mind.

Thursday, April 2, 2009


spring palettes throughout meatpacking district. who's getting the attention? blondie in black jeans and black tee. black is back for april.

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

hate my cock

success is the best revenge.