Tuesday, October 27, 2009

human psychology dichotomy

when you want happiness, you use money to be 'free', making you miserable in the end.

if you stop trying to be happy, you just work, and end up being content (real happiness) through your "miserable" days at work.

this is the ultimate dichotomy, they don't want you to find out.

keep your misery.

Friday, October 16, 2009


"all the armed prophets won, the disarmed went to their ruin."

machiavelli has little time for martyrs; he wants winners.


“Make mistakes of ambition and not mistakes of sloth. Develop the strength to do bold things, not the strength to suffer.”

-Niccolo Machiavelli, The Prince

Thursday, October 15, 2009

work sanity

I'm grateful that I had work to do. I may have thrown myself off a building.


Wednesday, October 14, 2009

why the suit is so important

its important to BALANCE out the underdog, fighting feeling of being gay in crowded boat, not some sort arrogant posture. the latter set fall by the way side, while the former stay in it long-term.

Monday, October 5, 2009

followers get paid

it's easy to be leaders, doing what you want to do. however, it's the followers who get paid.


nyc repub

Sunday, September 27, 2009


ja: are you into politics?

kl: no. i just believe in money, either way. i'll monetize it for you.

smart republicans bootstrap and get it done becoming millionaires. cerebral

democrats hold onto a thorny past, and do everything to free themselves from that thorn, becoming billionaires. emotional

i try to be one before lunch, and the other after. i just don't which is which yet.

ex. mogno on phone about c-out: in away you're lucky b/c i've never had to experience something like that. she did now to get 450

Thursday, September 24, 2009

insecurity, love it

Your job is not the only thing a person can be insecure about. There are plenty of insecure people in this industry. But, if you're going to feel insecure about something, you might as well do something constructive about it and get a great job you like and make lots of money. Beats taking steroids, watching reality TV, arguing on forums, reading self-help books, or wasting time trying to get ass.


not my fault.

users include therapists, masters of the universe, dc.

Wednesday, September 23, 2009


disguises liberate and free people. they make you invincible, do things you wouldn't normally do.

Monday, September 21, 2009

objective hierarchy

there's no correct opinion, but an objective thinking hierarchy exists. that's why those who prioritize work and tomorrow are always respected and paid.

that's why i love sports, not 'cause of loyalty. there's ALWAYS a correct way of thinking (the winner) and that thought pattern's the only one that matters.


Saturday, September 19, 2009

surprise myself daily :)

ambition is just a spiffy names for surprising myself daily. if i feel like it's not worth the effort, i remind myself what else will i do?

Monday, September 14, 2009

ohh la la

i never thought of it as working for money. i thought of it as free money that was BEGGING DAILY to be received by social or governmental simple requests. it's always out there if you just change your perception.


Sunday, September 13, 2009

happy ambition

leisure is the #1 cause of depression

Thursday, September 10, 2009

bank ate my heart

and now i feel so..
no. no..........................free
secrecy, money, things, people

Monday, August 31, 2009


crazy beats smarts and brawn

Wednesday, August 19, 2009


We have the same work ethic - we work 12-18 hours a day seven days a week.

-oid, charles on bruce

Monday, August 17, 2009


funny thing about success is that i was always told to be a go getter and break limits. i tried that and continuously crashed and burned; picking up the pieces, time again wasted.

what was your turning point?

ironically only when i finally acknowledged my limit, in my case new anonymous sex and the amount of time it consumed, and put it aside, did my many opportunities suddenly come to focus.

do you miss anonymous sex?

of course, but now i have myself... and money; i can just buy that without wasting time, or causing a dent in my fortune (sardonic laughter).


Friday, August 14, 2009

brooklyn, ny

cole of spw

edie segdwick, circa 2009

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

i <3 cheap

Cash runs the business and profit is the bottom line. Cash is not even mentioned on the Income Statement. Does all of this seem a little confusing? If it is, then great. Living in this paradox and resolving its seeming conflicts is a great part of the art and science of business leadership and success.

-darrell & judith

Friday, July 31, 2009

why is your side of the grass finally, forever greener?

my 'a-ha!' moment was when i obtained what i thought i wanted.

i was california dreaming, enjoying the waves, but i terribly missed the rush and hubris of downtown soon after.

so then we moved to the mountains, fell into our own lovely world. then, i felt a strong electric drain from not daily exercising my potential.

i'm back in gotham, with a more experienced perspective, and i'm loving the concrete more than ever.


Monday, July 27, 2009


hate what you do. it'll make you efficient, and you'll get a raise for it.

Saturday, July 25, 2009

letter seven. ny, ny

Most people have (with the help of conventions) turned their solutions toward what is easy and toward the easiest side of the easy; but it is clear that we must trust in what is difficult; everything alive trusts in it, everything in Nature grows and defends itself any way it can and is spontaneously itself, tries to be itself at all costs and against all opposition.

letter eight

Perhaps all the dragons in our lives are princesses who are only waiting to see us act, just once, with beauty and courage. Perhaps everything that frightens us is, in its deepest essence, something helpless that wants our love.


spark/peaceful study

your source of spark is important to inspire. it's used to get you out of bed and down the right path.

once you've acknowledged your path however, forget the source used to obtain the spark, as your travel should be peaceful, solitary, and deep to allow you to perfect your art.

only revisit the source of spark on a need by need basis, but once accomplished, it's important to proceed in a solitary, understanding environment, otherwise the adrenal from the spark will just interfere with your craft. they should be used and applied as two different entities.

Friday, July 24, 2009

85 broad

what keeps you motivated to be the best at your private equity position?

i tell everyone it's to support my family, put my kids through the best boarding schools, and that i love a good challenge. between you and me, it's all for wall street fashion; that's entirely 100%, it. call me vain, it's just as vain as a philosopher or doctor looking for acknowledgment for their public "beliefs," at least i'm upfront about it. yes, purely all for fashion to display at delmonico's, etc.


paris is burning


part 2, 4:56

moment of clarity

[Verse Two]
The music business hate me
Cause the industry ain't make me
Hustlers and boosters embrace me
And the music i be makin
I dumb down for my audience
And double my dollars

They criticize me for it
Yet they all yell "Holla"
If skills sold
Truth be told
I'd probably be
Talib Kweli
I wanna rhyme like Common Sense
(But i did five Mil)
I ain't been rhymin like Common since
When your sense got that much in common
And you been hustlin since
Your inception
Fuck perception
Go with what makes cents

I know what i'm up against
We as rappers must decide what's most impor-tant
And i can't help the poor if i'm one of them
So i got rich and gave back
To me that's the win, win
The next time you see the homie and his rims spin
Just know my mind is workin just like them
(The rims that is)

at 25, can't afford it.

But my time is money, at twenty-five, I can't afford it.


Wednesday, July 22, 2009

No one ever went broke underestimating the intelligence of the American people.
-- H. L. Mencken

the essential brilliance of restraint

'twas due to restraint of avoing rj that allowed hasp refi, sell auto, take advantage of restaurant wk, and discover arb.

time spent arguing is time wasted to accumulate 69.3

never log onto rj, yahoo, etc. ever.

The founder of Amstrad, who is estimated to be worth £830 million, was speaking in an upcoming episode of the fifth series of the BBC reality show.

The 61-year-old responds: “If you’d asked me: “Is making money better than sex?” 30 years ago, I’d say: “It depends”.

“Now, definitely, making money is my priority.”

Sunday, July 19, 2009

build demand

build demand

through youtube; must be DIRECT surroundings. use for money, sleep, friends.

build demand
build demand
build demand
build demand
build demand
build demand
build demand

Saturday, July 18, 2009


My life seems glamorous, but much hard work goes into my day to day.

Friday, July 17, 2009

leyomi vs. evisu

what if leyomi gave up then, that night, @1:45 to evisu? would she have realized her full potential and now legendary status?

simple is smarter

'the simple truth is examination of successful members of society always leads to effective and inspiring results, whereas examination of ill patients for psychology's sake always leads to bad inapplicable philosophy and wasted results.

funny how this field promotes the latter, coincidence? guess it keeps the drug companies and i fat, right?


Thursday, July 16, 2009

a commercial

no need for sorrow and despair, just keep on moving it's such a wondrous world out there.

the years are flashing by, and everything will change, but way down deep inside we all just stay the same.

stay hungry, stay foolish

remembering that you are going to die is the best way i know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose. you are already naked. there is no reason not to follow your heart.

death is very likely the single best invention of life. it is life's change agent.


Wednesday, July 15, 2009

i live a life of solitude and commitment to my work. you see i just don't prioritize my life in the same way as other people do. the only thing that matters is my art.

what is success to you?

inspiring people, not about being famous. well, it's about THE FAME, and having nothing in my fucking apartment except a piano, but believing you can go for THE FAME just by owning your fashion, your walk. anyone with nothing can feel and have it.

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

master linkedin

art, a$t, art

in the year 3009, all of the kids came out of new york and shot the paparazzi(*2). it was a thousand years before, that the monster first entered the city. famished for our hearts, and for our brains, and for our faces.

but it wasn't until the year 3009, that we realized that we could coexist with this monster with our MUZAAAAKKK, and with our technology (*1), and with our fashion.

(*1) code word, for art (bank account), cleanliness, and actual technology
(*2) j-birds, soulsuckers

Friday, July 10, 2009

the unspoken

daydream, so much benefits

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

g0y begets money

brotherhood, fraternity. whatever you want to call it. keep flirting.

SO LEAVE mentality

in the movies, volatile personalities are pegged heroic in the business environment.

in reality, this couldn't be further from the truth. avoid baseless arguments at all costs, since they consume too much emotional/intellectual capital, and most importantly time.

by having a "so leave" mentality with yourself and others, you'll become more action oriented.

i.e., if someone claims this country is socialist, simply ask why don't you leave? if you feel you are being underpaid, ask yourself, why don't i leave? the question cuts through rhetoric, affords you more energy, and things actually become accomplished.

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

sdeals = stock picks

q: what was the one thing that made you successful?

being skeptical and curious and inquisitive about what's going on in the world..

if something is very cheap, by very definition people are not interested in it, and frequently that's where you find your best opportunities IF there's a change taking place, not just because no one's investing there

larry white

if there's a gold rush, and there's not a lot of gold; you still make a lot of money selling shovels.

there is nothing that rewards difficulties; it rewards sagacious laziness.

talk small

success is 23% technical capability, and 77% favorable small talk.

wait, no it's not.

Monday, July 6, 2009


emphasizes here and now and no dogma on afterlife.

Saturday, July 4, 2009

mark jacobs

Superheroes tend to be orphans of sorts, and Marc Jacobs is no exception. His father, a theatrical agent in New York, died when Jacobs was seven. His mother, whom he has described in the past as 'troubled', is still alive, but he doesn't see her. 'I haven't spoken to her or my sister and brother in years and years,' he tells me. 'I never feel like it's a bad thing.'

Jacobs was brought up by his paternal grandmother, in the Upper West Side. 'She had a very bad relationship with her sister, whom I never knew, but I guess there was some argument and they never spoke again,' he says. 'Whenever I would mention something about my family, my grandmother would bring up the story of her sister and she would say, "We haven't spoken in years, so you'll get no argument from me.'

When Jacobs was in his teens he would go to the hyper-fashionable club Studio 54 all night, sometimes taking his books along so he could go straight to school in the morning. 'I had a ball,' he says. 'I mean, I really did.' He went to France for the first time at 17, and 'cried like a baby' on the plane home, because he felt so sure that he was meant to be a Parisian. 'Living with my grandmother, I just kind of grew up feeling like I was not going to be obliged to spend Thanksgiving with a bunch of people I didn't like – or who didn't like me! I shouldn't "shouldn't" do anything, or shouldn't "shouldn't" feel anything. I either do feel or I don't feel. I'm not going to "should" feel. Whether we're talking about contemporary art or we're talking about family, pretending that I feel something I don't feel doesn't really achieve anything. People say, "What if something happened to one of them?" Well, if that happens and I regret that, that'll be the way it is. But right now it's not something I'm regretting, so I can't act on that.' When Jacobs says that people should be shameless, he is talking about something more than exhibitionism. uk telegraph

investment banking; leave my family

Anyways, I definitely feel the need to be financially secure. Perhaps its because I'm not very close to my (dysfuntional) family so I don't feel as if anyone has my back, but I wont feel comfortable until I have the financial resrouces to make it in/make it out of any situation. dazedmonk;wso

pearl s. buck

i don't wait for moods. you accomplish nothing if you do that. your mind must know it has got to get down to work.

the secret of joy in work is contained in one word - excellence. to know how to do something well is to enjoy it.

Friday, July 3, 2009

talk yourself to the side

never talk yourself up like britney. you'll continually falter.

always talk yourself to the side, like gaga. you'll go much further quicker, and actually have fun doing it.

Friday, June 26, 2009

make a list of things you know that you don't know so you can forget about it/trying to control it, and focus on the things that you do know, and make SERIOUS CHEDDAR.

Thursday, June 25, 2009


first rule of wealth accumulation is the daily practice of being egoless

Sunday, June 21, 2009

goldman sachs

16) Paulson said, "Good firms worry about competition, great companies worry about clients"

Friday, June 19, 2009

no center, like the universe

have no center, hence jaybirds are so successful.

that army dude in the golf show tried to keep his center, and his head blew up and he was on the elimination team most of the time, hitting his balls to the tree.

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

sex is overrated

keep telling yourself every morning that sex is overrated..

they want you to think otherwise, so you'll waste time on finding it..when you can be more productive

exit opps

i do it all for the exit opps

Thursday, June 11, 2009

gaga #2

'i don't think that tabloids, any magazines have any real valid opinions about fashion. i like to repeat things over and over. i like to wear the same things in different colors. i want to burn the imagery into people's brains. at the the end of the day you have to really feel good in what u wear, and even if it's a bit crazy, you feel good, like fuck everyone else.'

the book of gaga
verse 1:04-1:53

this is the same concept with high finance/accounting. just like commercial media portrays it as boring and mind-numbing, you know better and skip happily against the brainwashed grain, getting richer and more fabulous every step of the way, with little competition since everyone is moving the other direction, following each other like sheep.

Tuesday, June 9, 2009


what turns my crank? uptight businessmen who aren't afraid to slap ass - devilwithin a4a

Monday, June 8, 2009


Happily Profit off Discrepancies

(monetarily, socially, emotionally, healthily, sexually, etc.)

Thursday, June 4, 2009


real trends and fads are born out of necessity/utility, not social contrivation.


i'm just a trash glam new york accountant, that's it really.

Wednesday, June 3, 2009

- - -

it is more important to like something, than to love it.

Sunday, May 31, 2009

so simple.

the hardest thing, is to keep it simple. the successful know this.

go where you like people. you must genuinely like people.

always make the other person feel important.

don't talk to g-d ($) directly

you can't talk to him directly, just through the arms of self-deprecation, humility, humor, and services.

Saturday, May 30, 2009


the solution is always outside the realm of the problem.

Friday, May 29, 2009

henry ford

The competitor to be feared is one who never bothers about you at all, but goes on making his own business better all the time.

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

happiness is a verb, use it sparingly.

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

trader's train

less sentiment, more success

Tuesday, May 12, 2009


nothing is absolute. we are sinking or rising exponentially. the cost of idleness is too great.

Sunday, May 10, 2009

boone pickens

a fool with a plan, can outsmart a genius with no plan.

Friday, May 8, 2009


ever notice that the coolest people never expend energy on being cool?


good business is the best art.

Thursday, May 7, 2009

dime to spare?

success is what you do in your spare time.

Tuesday, May 5, 2009


education, ease, money. in that order.

more precisely, education, ease, and money is merely the residue.

up, up, up

if you pin someone down, you are also down.

know it, so easy.

the less you know about something, the easier it is to hate it.

Monday, May 4, 2009


be that guy who wanted to hire the hooker, as opposed to firing her because you discovered her facebook account.

Sunday, May 3, 2009

power of the lie

quickest way to the desired truth/circumstance, is a lie to yourself.

Saturday, May 2, 2009

good guilt trips

use good guilt trips for your own benefit

ie pizza - to avoid, think of the feeling after you've eaten it and the regret

coming out - stories you've read and the regret of not doing it sooner

getting the right career - guilt of not done sooner

Friday, May 1, 2009

bury & forget

the quicker you bury & forget your old self, with the help of your night time committee.. the quicker you are to getting to your new self.


believes in specialization, and reads books on it.


always have a blocker in life, and stay behind him. like a good running back.

Wednesday, April 29, 2009

in need of motivation

build demand. it's just a matter of wanting it enough. in this case, fictitious characters can be more beneficial than real world ones, ironically enough.

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

throw yourself into it

happiness is merely not being conscious of oneself.

to attempt this, simply 'throw yourself' into an activity - work, gym prep, cleaning, debt reduction, resume creating, etc. keep the activities productive, so you can benefit in real terms. after all, happiness doesn't derive from the type of activity, but rather, one's letting go of self-consciousness by 'losing oneself' in the activity itself.

Monday, April 27, 2009

Friday, April 24, 2009

lazy hubris

how do you work so well?

it's because i'm lazy.

Monday, April 20, 2009

good worry

worry what to do with my too much money.

Saturday, April 18, 2009

in the gym feel the welcome and embrace the pain into your bones..elsewhere, always be running towards better things, like the jaybirds.

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

per se.

simplicity is the hardest thing to achieve - thomas keller

Tuesday, April 14, 2009


once i realized i knew nothing, everything made sense.

never above money

why is the rooster associated with money?

because he protects his unhatched yolky egg. treat money like an unhatched egg; insulate and safeguard him, kinda like your boyfriend.

Sunday, April 12, 2009

Saturday, April 11, 2009


Gusteau: [sees that Remy is about to eat a piece of bread at a get-together] What are you doing?
Remy: [groans] I'm hungry! I-I don't know where I am and I don't know when I'll find food again.
Gusteau: Remy, you are better than that. You are a cook! A cook makes! A thief takes. You are not a thief.
Remy: I am hungry.
Gusteau: [chuckles] Food will come, Remy. Food always comes to those who love to cook.


look at my wholesome husband and family. look at my garden and business, i'm so content.

to be honest i miss the emptiness, i miss the hunger and not knowing what lies ahead.

Tuesday, April 7, 2009


my contrary expressions have nothing to do with being courageous. in fact, it's a outright cowardly.

there comes a point, when the pain instilled by others to conform is diminished in comparison to the pain of continually accommodating others' views. in that sense, i'm "being myself" not to make some sort of stance. i'm simply walking away from the pain of not being myself, and am becoming too lazy to try anything otherwise.

Sunday, April 5, 2009

be a mirror

reinforce how people perceive themselves. whether it be true or false is irrelevant.

Saturday, April 4, 2009


it's always february in my head.

i know you're busy

i find busy people, let them know that.

Friday, April 3, 2009


i notice nothing makes me happier than work, even if i don't like it. the 'miserable' reflex is merely a response to social norms and expectations about the subject.

in reality, it gives me the most peace of mind.

Thursday, April 2, 2009


spring palettes throughout meatpacking district. who's getting the attention? blondie in black jeans and black tee. black is back for april.

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

hate my cock

success is the best revenge.

Tuesday, March 31, 2009

fear makes better

if i can pick one attribute in my life, it's fear.

think about it, fear of never dating someone hot forced me to the gym, look at my abs and my humble boy.

fear of my previous job, forced me to write up a great resume, and now am at a top 3 bulge bracket.

fear of reading articles from 45 year old men about regretting not doing it sooner, led me to come out.

Monday, March 30, 2009


young [bob] dylan is a sponge who absorbs vivid details of the characters and places of the folk scene so that old dylan can echo them back to us and continue his residence in malibu.
hate the sin, love the sinner

hip schmip

obsessively detailed is the new carefree

Sunday, March 29, 2009

it's social, bro

if you want to be the ring leader of your PE group, don't study financial data/history, study social psychology.

Saturday, March 28, 2009

the top

it's a scary, competitive world out there. keep your guard down.

i love my job

they say to go in a working field that you love. wrong.

love isn't as natural as people make it. 90% of the time it's manufactured, and can be applied to anything, work included. go into a field that pays well, and lie to yourself every day that you love it. in time, you'll genuinely be happy about your choices, while the rest continue to wonder if there's anything better out there, usually their entire lives.

the best always bit

follow mike camp.

Friday, March 27, 2009


i wasn't oppressed this whole time after all. i was just avoiding freedom, because i didn't know how to handle her.


art saves. when defined, fades.


find someone worth spoiling. it makes your work effective and efficient; and you now have a god that everyone speaks of.


embrace your misery, but keep your humour.

Thursday, March 26, 2009


90% off life is (should be) preparing for something. so enjoy your own company, and whistling while you work.


i like to tell lies that become true - haus

the well-rounded, HA!

they say it's best to grow up well-rounded. FUCK YOU. i made it to where i am now because i AVOID the middle at all cost. i am an extreme right-wing, bear hunting conservative when it comes to money, and i am extremely left-wing socially, heartily, and sexually.

if you are in the middle, you are perpetually dead, and falling.

Wednesday, March 25, 2009




no, i do get it. he's an asshole, alright. but you have two choices now. do you want to spend your life fighting an asshole, or enjoying yourself, your money, your friends? -jm

Sunday, March 22, 2009

maybe it's maybelline

pretending to like your job is 70% of it. the other 30% is showing up on time. -salma
hi, my name is srilang and i'm new to this country. oh, i live on west 19th for now. -sl
work. competition. frienemies. 90% of our day forces us to be on our toes, watchful and defensive. in that 10%, unwind. listen to queen and country, they don't have to know, though better if they do. -ej

Saturday, March 21, 2009

making money is the best art - andy
the more you think about something, the more it loses it's importance.
spend your whole life preparing for the black swan. it will give your life meaning and beauty, whether it comes or not.

Friday, March 20, 2009

self-fulfilling prophecy

life is nothing but one big self-fulfilling prophecy.


your best foot is the only one that matters. it should be in your cerebral cortex when you wake up, throughout the day, and when you go to bed. - dolly

Thursday, March 19, 2009

on manhattan resilience

in youth, enjoy all aspects of it's exciting energy - celebratory or destructive, effects taken and unquestioned.

mid-career, shun it for objectivity's sake.

as an exec, revisit/live it's re-surging pulse from your youth - this time, maximize it's energy to your social, verbal, physical, and fiscal glamour.

'i feel like [new york] just swallows you up and spits you out' - whit

damn right, keep up.


i love being oppressed and tied to my studies and responsibilities. it gives me money, and saves me from the depression that comes with boundless & timeless freedom. -mj

Saturday, March 14, 2009

learn to sell your soul, daily

your soul; a very small price to pay for $3 million a year, different cities, and locally flavored orgies every morning.

c'mon, just dye blonde - ala warhol, madonna, and gaga.

embrace misery, it sets you free. stop running from it. 3 hour work intervals.

put down the blinders. dabble in different circles/lob. you'll pick up skills in each, helping you in each task.

entry to the street: use visions of morning orgies as the carrot, but always understand real happiness comes from simple doings.

too much of the former, you will get swept up in the vacuum and lose it all in a day. too much of the latter, and you'll have nothing to lose, to begin with.

i will come back to you

i realize the very thing i ran from and tried to deny about myself as a child, is the ultimate source of power and perseverance i tap into as an adult. the feeling never changed, it's just interpreted differently, now to my advantage.

Friday, March 13, 2009

2 rules to life

1. 8.5 hours of sleep every night
3. this is easy.
2. finish all work by 7:45pm, only personal affairs after
4. this is easy.

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

subtle is best

listen to the same music as your boss. it puts you on the same wavelength, relieves awkward pauses, allowing you a more productive, flowing day.

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

firstly, always a bank mentality

enjoy mundane tasks of cleaning and checking of transactions, understanding the peace of knowing where you fiscally stand, is real 'happiness,' whereas mainstream 'happiness' is short-lived, and has double-time negative response.

low-interest borrowing, secured high-interest lending.

precise, efficient, clean, and never too greedy.

Monday, March 9, 2009

i'm in new york, trick

if gay is the new black, then adhd is the new gay.